Deteriorate

Currently I am deteriorating.
Flesh is being stripped from my bones.
Muscles being torn from tendons.
A heart being pulled from my chest.

Donation of faulty material;
Which would you like?
Pick away at what little is left.
It'll be gone soon.

A waste of space,
And a loss of breath.
I am deteriorating now,
As my lungs have collapsed,
And my heart has burst.

Explosions within my brain as tissues slowly fade away,
A peircing stare turned unspirited and unmoving.
Before me, with eyes wide open, lies everything which I cannot see.
A world I once dominated,
Is now dim to me.

Allow not a word to keep me alive.
Forsee not a whisper,
To keep me from dying.
Secure nothing but silence,
For soon we shall meet.
Endure only darkness,
As I lie at your feet.

What is the reason for you to preserve this?
A lung,
A heart,
My liver perhaps?
You prolong a pain which you've dealt to be mine.
But who gave you the power to decide?

A beat that no longer thumps or sings.
As you told me you'd take me under your wing.

An escape; futile.
You've taken all that was left.
My ability to run away,
Stripped of me on the first day.

Does what is written remind you of what once was alive?
Does this fate that i've assigned you, show you that i tried?

And now it is too late,
As you watch what is left deteriorate.

I Found Him

Someone who makes your heart sing.
You deserve it.
There is no giving up,
Only giving in.
My emotions guide me towards you,
And away from him.
Would it be too bold,
To say i love you?
And to scream it from the skies,
For everyone to hear?
Would you mind if i kissed you,
And made you smile ear-to-ear?
And do you think I'd get away with
Never ever letting go?
The first embrace lasting an eternity,
If you could imagine so...
With a constant pain i received before,
Would you be willing to fix me?
Patch me up
And heal my wounds,
Be patient with me...
Or is it too soon?

Beats pound around my chest.
A melody quite unlike any other.
I've realized with you,
There is no fear.
An infinite strand of voice,
Carried through the wire;
A constant barrier to bare.

The world wasn't created for convenience.
When was i ever told this would be easy?
We were put here to feel alive,
But up until now i was only living.
You've awoken something I've never known of myself,
A feeling in my chest;
A melody of blood pumping faster
With each word you say.
An infinite strand of voice,
And i couldn't ask for more.

I was one advised,
"you've got a lot of time"
But who needs time,
When I've got you?
A family where i belong,
You make my heart a song.

Happily Ever After

Cheater cheater pumpkin eater,
Had a girl but couldn't keep her.
Honesty is the policy,
But one you cannot follow. 
Maybe I could love you,
If your heart weren't hollow.

How many kisses must I supply?
You still just sit there,
Eating flies.
Maybe you could hop away
So I could find a real prince someday?

The shoe fit perfectly, 
But you picked the evil step-sister.
You could've kissed me,
But instead you kissed her. 

I waited and waited for my prince to arrive,
Glistening with his bright white steer.
It's amazing how slowly the time passes by.
How much longer will I be trapped here? 

So maybe this isn't quite the fairy tale I'd expected,
Someday I'll find an escape. 
So maybe I feel neglected,
I know I'll be happy someday. 

Right Next to Me

We whisper sweet nothings,
But to me they mean everything.
How could this be true?
I've never met anyone like you.
Every single time you whisper in my ear,
I wish you were here...
I just wish you were here.
I begin to feel you near
And our worlds fall apart.
The life we're living in this moment,
I'm finally alive.
You've brought me to life.
Every single thing you say
Takes my breath away.
I wish i could say...
I just wish you would stay.
Four days and four letters,
But they'll take a lifetime to prove.
I hope this isn't too good to be true.
I wouldn't be alive,
If it weren't for you.

Visions

They can all see me if they just look.

I'm so vulnerable under their gaze.

They can't see through me, but they can see my exterior.

I'm surrounded by a hateful world,

With all eyes on me.

The thought overwhelms me,

It's too much to bare.

They see me shaking,

All they can do is stare.

They're looking at me now,

Confused by my empty glare.

Even the most piercing eyes

Hold secrets behind.

Something unreadable,

Words I’d never utter

For their emotion is inconceivable.

The whispers behind my stare;

Inaudible.

This town has its pale, uninhabited eyes.

your shallow souls look through their screen.

Stuck behind the glass,

Like a fish in a tank,

You can look all you want,

But you'll never touch.

There are whispers behind all pupils,

And some mouths are mute.

An old soul trapped behind green walls,

Microscopic gold specks;

Faults where secrets begin to crack under the pressure.

How long can they remain under wraps?

Words never uttered;

Seeping through the cracks.

This is what the front of the Just Plain Izzi t-shirts should look like. Originally, they were supposed to be pink-ish, but the design got changed to red. I've also got bumper stickers on the way! They should all arrive between September 5th and September 15th. I'm so excited!

Neutrality

Nonexistent expressions;
And emotions are lost.
Neutral and unchanging.
Your words no longer phase me.
Patience has run out,
Now I've lost all but exterior patience.

Hardly blinking,
No movements.
Sterile of feelings,
At a welcomed loss for words.
Silence doesn't exist,
But I'll sink into the quiet.

Unphased, yet obviously not the same.
Changed, but not a single thing moved.
Walking across an abyss,
Or standing still?
Traverse an emptiness
And you're exactly where you started.

Standing still.
The silence
Unbroken.