The Hearts of the Kingdom

A scrap of metal,
As fake as you.
Did you lie about this one too?
Just a way to make my day,
So you could sneak into a frozen lay?
I wish you'd disappear forever,
So i could never see your smile again.
Go somewhere there is no weather,
Somewhere it burns all the time.
And with a flush i say goodbye
To the start of every single lie.

Slain

Only a promise to maintain
He'll smile at the injuries you sustain.
Should you give him that pleasure?
He'll boast about your pain.

Is hurting so much
Really any gain?
All of your fighting is simply in vain.
Are you defending yourself,
Or the girl who caused you so much pain?
You cowered under her,
You adhered to her reign
The emotions behind it,
A feeling you could never explain.

No matter how hard i try,
I could never restrain.
You're willing to fight;
Pour liquid from the vein.
But I'll be there in the end,
To clean the bloodstain.
And in my arms,
You shall always remain.
Safe and sound
But always in vain.

Violence of a Lifetime

This is the climax of my story.
As a single tear is shed
From the eye of our main character.
Blood spills from the sides of the tub,
Submerged in woes and regrets long forsaken.
Our protagonist dies
As the antagonist is lost from her eyes.

You can try to read between the lines.
The search is futile.
The reason was simple,
She was sick of living like she was dead.
She was sick of constantly dying.

Blood is shed
On the battle field of her bathroom floor.
"I've been dead since age 11,
But you're the reason my heart stopped beating."

(sorry, this is really dark, it just reminded me of the things people who I am close to have to deal with)

The Losing Game

Stop screaming it,
Stop telling me you don't care.
I know its the truth,
But it's too much to bare.

I'll live through each day
Knowing I lost you
And I know you'll never pay
For each lie that sounded so true.

A Weak Subject to Stumble Upon

I'm not in love
You don't own my heart.
I once was,
But now I'm not.
You don't have to leave me,
I already have.

Maybe my shadow
Has walked away
And followed you.
But if i turn out the lights
That won't affect me in the slightest.

You never realized how much i meant,
I was there for your beckon and call.
Now that I'm gone,
You'll sit back and watch yourself fall.
If I'm not there to keep you out of harms way,
What will you become?
I was strong to leave,
And you were weak to watch me walk away.

Static Stats

I cant bare to sit alone.
I am not lonely.
I am afraid.
I can't stand being in proximity of my thoughts.
They are within me.
I cant escape them.
Every silence reminds me of it.
Stop these thoughts.
Antagonistic, free me.
Watch my hands shake.
There's something wrong with me.
But i know they'd say
 I'm just another statistic.

My Mind is the Muse

Some say veterans fought for my freedom.
A war wages within me every day.
Where is my medal?
Purple hearts for I've been wounded.
Thoughts are prison bars.
I'm confined in the loudest silence.

Creating Broken Hearts

I was naive
To ever think
I could love an evil soul
Like you.

If you have no love in your heart,
How could you expect to ever feel love for yourself?

Hypocrite;
You claim you're broken hearted.
You've never felt a broken heart,
Besides the ones you broke yourself.

Wipe the tears from your eyes
With the same sleeve that holds
So many broken hearts.
They shouldn't belong to you,
You broke them.
You were nothing more than a pretty face,
And pretty people are petty.

Extinguished

Wash the flame,
It cleanses my breath.
Heat sears my dusty throat.
I swallow deeply to forget the pain.
It follows into my gut.
I lose the will to continue as my insides are swiftly burned away.

Hell resides within my sides.
Every organ slowly dies.
My heart's constant fire is burned away with a more literal flame.
My body's metronome no longer ticks.
What is left is buried below the earth,
Covered by beauty, in foliage and sticks.

Close Friend from Afar

You've appeared through the abyss.
Come to me in my time of need.
You've filled me with unprecedented bliss,
And you've asked nothing of me in return.
You've taught me things
That Chicago hasn't learned.

For a smile to traverse my face,
A feat quite unattainable,
I don't feel so lost in this foreign place.
You've opened my eyes
Simply to show me:
Not every child dies.
One uses deceit to win a prize.
Love doesn't exist due to unbroken ties.
There is such a thing as joyful cries.
This land is filled with dishonest guys,
But not everybody lies.

Blue Blood

Just watch as I hold my breath,
The way I once held you in my arms.
Watch, as my skin begins to turn blue.
I'm becoming cold.
Breathe into me,
Make my heart begin to beat.
Just let me live
While I am still alive.

Lips Unlocked

It was the kiss that kept us together
Now I've lost my heart.
Once, our lips kept us close.
I couldn't keep you near.

You said you didn't want my lips;
We're far from where we were.
You said you were uncomfortable;
But your actions are discomforting.
I've felt a sad uneasiness since the day we parted ways.

I'll never know the real reason why you left,
Is there an underlying cause?
Please just free me from the heartache
That I've been feeling for so long.

With your "gentle golden kiss"
I am freed from misery.
But i guess your discomfort
Is much too much
To save me from this pain.

Written in Red

I was so happy when you disappeared.
Your invisibility,
It made life seem easy.
Welcome back the competition.
When you leave,
I'll be set free.
Just keep your heart away from me.

You're dangerous,
Selfish and cruel.
Couldn't you just let me win this time?
Why is every encounter a fight?
I've become so strong
But I've forgotten what I was fighting for.
I am strong enough
To end this war.

My white flag;
Written in red.

Why am I Here?

Why am I here?
No, not "what is my purpose in life?"
Who is to thank
For my appearance on Earth?
Where did I come from?
Who taught me to be myself?
Where did my vocabulary come from?
My mannerisms? Where did they originate?
Who is to thank
For all I've become?
Thanks Mum!

Mother, mom, mommy,
What ever the name,
You're why I'm here,
I love you!
If I become famous, you're to blame.
You're everything good in life,
I have only you to thank.
So to my mom,
Every day should be mothers day,
Because the kids owe it all to you<3
Happy mothers day!

Good News!!! update*

It has been a very exciting time for me lately! With the support of my friends Jenny and Jose I was able to read my poem Reflections of Anig to a library filled with students. The poem was well recived and the experience was a good one.
Also, today I learned that two of my poems (Missing Embrace and Why You Came) are to be published in an art magazine called Nuance. If you would like to learn more, visit http://www.nuancelitmag.com/. My friends and family are very excited that I am going to be a published author at such a young age! I am looking forward to the unveling of the book on May 19th. More poems will be posted as soon as I write them. Enjoy!