Game Changer

We're playing the same game,
Day after day.
We race,
We fight,
We dance
We play.

For or against,
Are we on the same team?
Hold me to this,
For I am no wench.
You've caught the ball
And panic instills.
The world is quiet,
Awaiting your pitch.

When the ball is in your court,
When all eyes are on you;
Panic and nausea quickly ensue.
Glance around,
The world is calm,
Watching as your invisible chaos forms.
You live in your own mind for a moment,
Looking about for the next victim of the ball.
The haze that surrounds you goes undetected.
And then you realize,
You don't know what to do.
You don't have a clue.

Power is awarded
To those who understand;
Power is a ball,
Is there chaos in your hand?

Claws in the Carpet

A layer separates us now. 
Intertwined in what isn't lasting. 
Something filled with so much pain,
Sorrow enters through each vein.
Living in a neutral face,
Expressions lost on our last date. 
I let you go knowing i couldn't be the same.
You left knowing you'd never see me again.

And to these deeds i do not lend,
A sorry hand to hold my friend. 
You may leave at any time
But you hold me close as we both cry. 

And when i realized this was wrong,
I couldnt deny; 
Your will too strong. 
Scrapes, scratches and bruises are mine,
But only the ones you've left in my mind. 

Were you ever the right guy?
Or maybe this was just the wrong time. 

Epiphany

Cancellation, no.
Renewal, no.
Adjustment.
Evaluate your current state.

Your money, your job, your home;
Conflate.

You live here,
Your demesne.

All that is invisible,
All that you can feel;
Ethereal.

All that doesn't matter,
All that will vanish;
Evanescent.

And you've come to realize,
Nothing you've done will be permanent.
Your constant desire for fame;
Your undying greed for all that will live forever
In hopes that you will be eternal.
In hopes that they will always know your name.

Does what they think really matter?
High school and we hear it all the time,
It doesn't matter what they think.
All I am is mine.

You're in the business of lasting forever,
Will they remember you at the end?
While life is fugacious,
You long to be sempiternal.

While you look,
Serendipity.

Calm your searching,
Achieve your languor,
Find some leisure.
Relax.

No need for the opulent life you strive for.
No need to die with life's galore.

Speak much louder through the grave.
Six feet deep and you smell of rain;
Burried in the petrichor.
Above you is efflorescence.
Life's fleeting felicity.

I will be your harbinger.
Dealing all which cannot be dealt.
Do you mind?
For I will not be
The bearer of bad news.
Sweetly bringing all you dread,
Mellifluous words of the end.
I appreciate your forbearance.

No need to worry,
For your future is far.
Incipient.

Concern yourself with only the quintessential,
For your life is redolent.
You've only seen half of it,
You've got so much more to live.
Don't bother with the little things,
You're going somewhere big.

Today's drama is only a ripple.
You've met the offing.
You're beautiful,
Believe me.

The air is susurrous,
But whispers won't matter.
Take my talisman,
It will guide you home.

Outsiders don't matter,
Live life as your own.

Work and Play

Carrying a pointless burden.
I'm your life, 
Who are you? 

Neither of us want this,
But we depend on it.
Whats keeping us together?

Something beyond comprehending
In the worst way possible.
Whats so good about it?

We're stuck like glue,
But we've both got solvent.
Why are we still here?

The point of this is fun,
So why am I bleeding?
Maybe i used to enjoy pain.

Things have changed since then,
I'm tired of being your victim.
I'm tired.

A break might be nice,
But we're "inseperable."
Says who?

I just realized i can't take this.
I know i hate this.
And you do too.

My heart sings for another,
But you sing for me.
Return to a quiet hum.

You keep telling me why this shouldn't work.
You keep telling me why you don't want this to work.
I don't want this to work. 

I never wanted this to be work. 

A Lifetime

By tomorrow i won't be able to speak.
Life is fleeting from my lungs,
I fear i won't have time to say goodbye. 
Farewell to the only friend i've ever known,
So long to the world which now dominates me. 
I leak a solemn goodbye 
As my eyes go wet
And my throat runs dry. 

This is the time when i regret every moment wasted,
Every second i spent,
Every tear i wept upon you. 

It is now that i realize 
A true friend wouldn't allow it, 
You won't let me go, 
And i don't mind.
You remind me what its like to feel safety. 
Secure in your mind as well as your voice. 
Remain in this foreign place i call home.
Remain in your arms, where i don't belong.
Remain in your thoughts, in your history and tomorrow,
Remain by your side forever. 

As my last words escape me 
I wonder,
Was that enough?
How will i ever explain to him 
How my heart beats solely for him,
If i've only got a few hours to cherish.
You are my forever, 
And now it has taken a lifetime to prove
What i've said in three seconds,
I love you. 

Loudly Dreaming

I cant remember a time of more happiness
Than this moment we're experiencing now. 
We sway together, 
Side by side. 
Disco balls provide moonlight. 
And we dance.
We dance;
It's a simple as that. 
A silent bass runs through us,
Vibrating our bodies to the same invisible beat. 
For something so magical, 
This is far from make believe. 
There is no concept of time,
In this world of you and me. 
Only helping hands and hearts
As you will me off to sleep. 
Good night,
And I hope your dreams are sweet. 

To Say Goodbye

To think, one day we were friends.
What happened to our so called "happy end"?
Why did you leave without a clue?
What happened to always, me and you?

I realize you don't care,
But you want me to.
Why must you continue walking,
Dragging me behind you by the neck.

Maybe if I wanted to go,
Civil disobedience wouldn't be so prevalent.
But drag me behind you as you must,
I'll lie on the floor where you left me.

You've moved on,
But you want them all.
I've removed you from my life,
But not so far.

You're as bad as my past,
As sinister as he once was.
And now you look like him.
You've morphed into someone I don't recognize.
You've changed in your head;
You've changed in my eyes.

Why must you make it so hard
To say goodbye?